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Just Shoot Me…

Posted in Uncategorized on December 21, 2018 by morgueticiaatoms

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I couldn’t come up with a better title than the show I am watching on TV right now, sorry for it’s social implications, as I am sure in 2018 even slang for taking pictures is insensitive to someone…Maybe that is part of why I’ve been sticking told shows like Just Shoot Me or my newer binge crush The Goldbergs. Free TV is free TV on the Vudu app and well, I saw a promo for the Goldbergs and it mentioned growing up in the 80’s so…I had to at least take a peek. Turns out I love that show, too.

So is it offensive for a non Jewish person to like a show about a Jewish family? Is it racially insensitive to remark they have aome Jewish customs? Ya know, I don’t know about shit anymore. I thought I’d subscribe to a diverse number of publications on line so I’d…

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Magna-Tardis

Posted in Uncategorized on December 14, 2018 by morgueticiaatoms

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My daughter did this, based only on seeing the Tardis poster on my bedroom door. I think she NAILED IT.

She’s oddly okay with me yelling MAYHEM!Do you have Allstate? every time her Magictracks cars bump each other.

Normal is overrated. Work the quirk, people.

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Accuracy of this! 😆

Posted in Uncategorized on November 30, 2018 by morgueticiaatoms

Me. YES. THIS!!!

Nothing can describe my mind better!

Nothing!

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My Email Gifted Me With Something to Make Me Smile

Posted in Uncategorized on November 5, 2018 by morgueticiaatoms

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No one comprehends how difficult it is to jet even the tiniest joys out of life when you’re being psychologically eviscerated by depression and a less than optimal living situation. Today, however, just by opening some random thing I subscribed to by email (and I don’t even remember why), I was given a smile, a few laughs, and even a little reason to headbang.

Maybe it’s a parent thing (though I watched Pokemon at 6 a.m. back in 1999 when I had no kids, I just thought they were toooo cuuute!) and it didn’t impress my 9 year old cos she likes mellow music, she said ‘it’s too metal’. Is that even a thing? Oh, right, I really freaked her out when I found a death metal version of the country song she likes “Body Like A Back Road.” I thought it made the song more awesome. I’m metal to…

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Single Parenting While Bipolar

Posted in Uncategorized on October 29, 2018 by morgueticiaatoms

Spewage about parenting while under the influence of bipolar disorder.

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Life with bipolar disorder is tough enough, even with the so called ‘lesser’ axis 2 diagnosis (cos being depressed 90% of the time isn’t as destructive as being manic 90% of the time). Doing it while being a single parent is even tougher. You get to feel your own feelings, absorb your child’s, and wonder constantly how your disorders have managed to impact your kid negatively or if you’re just a shitty parent.  Worse, the kid comes to believe they can scapegoat their failings on you and your disorders when in fact, they’re unrelated. My kid does this frequently and to be fair, I weigh things heavily on whether I am being irrational, acting on depression or anger, or if she’s truly behaving inappropriately. Thing is, kids aren’t fair so while I am doing my best to find balance, my kid is doing her best to find anything to blame…

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Tagless

Posted in Uncategorized on October 29, 2018 by morgueticiaatoms

If you write a blog post but don’t put it in a category with bunches of tags, does it even exist? It’s the tree forest thing. Falling trees make sound even without earwitnesses, blog posts exist without readers. And maybe for this one that is a good thing.

I’m still not sleeping solidly even with Seroquel. Bout the best I can say is what sleep I have been getting has been more restful but also accompanied with an hour long battle to get out of bed in the morning. And while I have a couple of hours feeling rested, by mid afternoon I’m sleepy, and the depression just keeps tugging me downward, and my kid is all drama and demands so I let her spend quite a bit of time at grandpa’s this weekend then feel guilty for taking the break and still not feeling less anxious, less depressed, less tired.

I keep telling myself it will pass, starting new meds always comes with side effects and a change in mental state. All I feel is hopeless. So I tell myself I’ve earned another night of half ass rest and maybe tomorrow will be different but…how can it be if my mental state never is? I am so sick of even the doctors being blinded by minimal functionality. I don’t feel like life is a gift. It’s a chore and I am just waiting to die. And yeah, it sounds fucking warped and ungrateful and I just can’t work up half a fuck…

I don’t like where my mind is right now. I hate being alone with it, yet I can’t share it outside of this blog on line for I might harsh everyone else’s mellow with my ‘silly mood swings’. So I vent on line and look like a perpetual complainer but this is my only outlet.

Only one thing to do when I sink to moods like this. Hole up in Fort Blankie, wait for the pills to kick in, and sleep it off. I’ll rest up and try putting up more of a fight against the depressive inertia tomorrow.
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Weekend meet and greet come join me!

Posted in Uncategorized on October 27, 2018 by morgueticiaatoms

When every desire you have says avoid people like the plague…do the opposite cos you’re bipolar and it works that way. Get to meeting and greeting.

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Hi guys
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I thought I’d do a meet and greet this weekend! Come on and join in! You know you wanna!
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So the rules, because there’s gotta be some rules, right? But only a few!
1 Put a link to your own blog, or someone else’s on this page
2 Reblog this and like the post.
3 Go visit other blogs that have joined in and show some love!

These are the rules, so simple!
So come on lets get meeting and greeting guys!
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Welcome to the weekend! And welcome to Carol anne meet and greet!

The meet and greet will stay open until Monday! So go on, join in! 😛

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