Panic Aftermath 10,002


Certified papers from the Donor, re the divorce. His tone changed to indignant and obsequious. He insists the first papers weren’t divorce papers,I was mistaken. R saw the first papers and agrees with me, they were divorce papers.

The Donor spelled things out, informed me he’s acting pro se (his own lawyer) because it’s the only way he can afford a divorce but he’s been getting advice from a legal student which is as good as a lawyer and I am free to call her and talk to her about any concerns I have.

Furthermore, he has all the property he wants and considers it divided, except for his birth certificate, which he left here but it makes it seem like I am holding it hostage.

Then he wants the bills divided according to whose name they are in, which means he gets off with a three hundred dollar cable bills and I am going to have file bankruptcy on about four grand in hospital bills from Spook’s prenatal and birth care.

He wants visitation rights but there’s no mention of support or a schedule.

Which means with his ever revolving schedule at the convenience store, I will once again be held hostage by his schedule, and his whims, and Spook will pay the price for his psychotic behavior.
I’m really NOT okay with this.

Fine, have your divorce, your grounds, I’ll take the bills and all parental responsibility.

But not even mailing her a Christmas or birthday gift or trying to see her for  a year, now suddenly he wants to leave the door open for visitation if and when it suits him…Never mind the damage it might do to her.

I was pretty much a wreck all day, stomach issues, anxiety, mood low, distracted.

Now I am just nervous and irate and worried and my stomach is still doing flipflops that send me to the bathroom.

The joy of being me.

I am just…pissed off and down and seriously fucking worried.

And stressed, let’s not forget that, the panic reverberates into my damn spleen.

I’m sick of being cranky and down and stressed.

I need a vacation from being me.




One Response to “Panic Aftermath 10,002”

  1. well I am glad you survived. Have you been able to talk to a lawyer at all? I really hope all this shit can get sorted out quickly and just be done with.

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